Saturday, February 25, 2012

What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean i'm over cos you're gone

These are the lyrics to the chorus Stronger by Kelly Clarkson. I hadn't heard this song until Thursday. I was so blessed to get the oppurtunity to come home to Oklahoma for the weekend and while driving I hear this song. The song is actually about being stronger after I break up I think but when I heard what doesn't kill you makes you stronger I just started crying.

The journey my family has been on the past eight months has been a long tiring journey. My little brother is loved and adored so much by everyone in the family. He is such a joy to be around. So, when he first got sick it was like a meteor hitting my family. My family has become closer and definitely stronger over the past eight months. My brother had surgery on Monday and after surgery he lost his eyesight. The doctors did an immediate surgery for his eye. They don't know what caused this to happen but he lost blood flow to the retina and now all the nerves are swollen as well. This is causing him to continue to have a loss of vision. He is PRAISE THE LORD getting a little bit more vision back everyday. We don't know how much he will recover. Currently he has to have help getting around by holding onto someones arm. He can see within two feet of himself but mostly objects that he already knows and can identify from his knowledge of the object. He lost all eyesight when he was a lot younger due to glaucoma in that eye. I am believing in devine healing from the Lord. I also know though that none of this is a worry to the Lord so it should be of no worries to my family. I pray everyday that all of this will be worked out all for God's glory and that Connor's testimony one day will bring people to Jesus because of His works in Connor. I struggled when Connor first got sick but Connor is the Lord's child before he is anything to us here on Earth. So, I know that He has a wonderful plan for Connor that is designed to glorify Jesus.

That being said What doesn't kill us makes us stronger. I am holding up so well all because of Jesus. He is my strength and He has held me up through all of this. Daily I think about the things that I have and how I don't deserve any of it. I am so blessed to have the gift of eternal life how could I ever expect anything else. However, God continues to bless me and for that I will lay down my life to Him and serve Him. When I lay down my life He blesses me more and one of the ways has been through strength. How could I ever not believe in my God? I hope and pray that you will see the God that I see and get to love everyday.

In the lyrics it also says what doesn't kill you makes you a fighter. I see this as fighting Satan. He can't get me down. He hasn't killed me, so, I'm going to fight for God's glory, God's word, and His people.

1 comment:

  1. I love you and your amazing heart for the Lord